beyond the wild

"Saying that about a friend used to really scare me but now it doesn’t. I don’t love you anymore:..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 01:05:59 -0500

“

Saying that about a friend used to really scare me but now it doesn’t. I don’t love you anymore: it’s a fact and it’s not even cold or hard. It doesn’t scare me anymore because it’s just the truth. I don’t love you anymore. You and I are cut.

Relationships are something I’ve always been bad at but friendships are something I’ve always been proud of. I never really thought a friend could do something I wouldn’t forgive them for, something I wouldn’t be there to pick up the pieces after, anything we do to fuck things up with the people we care about the most. Platonic love has always felt stronger than romantic love because that’s what constructs our core. You had no selfish reasons to put up with my fuck ups but you put up with them anyway because you loved me and I loved you back.

But you didn’t love me enough, I guess, and now I don’t love you either.

Your girlfriend has a habit of going through your electronics so you used to write me letters. She thought there was something going on between us and she didn’t trust you. (It’s always a stupid reason like that.) You could have stood up for us but you didn’t. The worst that would have happened was you’d be single. This is how I know you didn’t love me enough: because you and I weren’t worth enough to fight for. Eventually you stopped writing me letters.

I always hate when people say “you never really loved me” at the end of a relationship because that’s almost never the case. But at the end of a friendship it almost always is.

I don’t love you anymore because I’m not important to you and you give me nothing. Maybe saying that makes me a selfish person but I no longer care.

We like to talk about love like it’s unconditional but there is probably nothing more conditional than love. There’s no point in having love for someone who doesn’t want it. There’s no point in putting endless energy into someone who has nothing but empty words for you and not even that, someone it makes no difference to whether you wake up in the morning, or don’t. We are not hardwired. We are not absolutes.

Memory is not enough to sustain love and that’s another reason I don’t love you anymore.

I don’t love you anymore because if I were to love you I’d be loving the person you were then and not who you are now, the you who used to love me, the friend I remember who’s died since and you no longer know me. If I were to speak to you you’d turn a blank face. Your cells have regenerated since I spoke to you last, you’re not in there anymore and I’m talking to a stranger.

I’m talking to myself again

”

- I Don’t Love You Anymore

MAY. 10, 2013 By MILA JARONIEC

(via byrdseed)

ixnay-on-the-oddk: ok. im done now :*

Tue, 21 May 2013 21:54:47 -0500

ixnay-on-the-oddk:

ok. im done now

:*

Claude Monet » Water Lilies

Tue, 21 May 2013 20:49:02 -0500

Claude Monet » Water Lilies

creativerehab: Backyard. Lo-res 35mm film scan.

Tue, 21 May 2013 19:43:33 -0500

creativerehab:

Backyard.

Lo-res 35mm film scan.

insert-awesome-title-here: Fun fact: this movie makes me...

Tue, 21 May 2013 18:37:29 -0500

insert-awesome-title-here:

Fun fact: this movie makes me fucking cry.

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Tue, 21 May 2013 17:31:54 -0500

derivings: untitled by Michelle Gow on Flickr.

Tue, 21 May 2013 16:26:03 -0500

derivings:

untitled by Michelle Gow on Flickr.

“Ok, sure, no problem.” this is exactly what cocktail...

Tue, 21 May 2013 16:07:22 -0500

“Ok, sure, no problem.”

this is exactly what cocktail waitressing is like

caringisdefinitelycreepy: westernwon: alexsparks: Feeling...

Tue, 21 May 2013 16:05:26 -0500

caringisdefinitelycreepy:

westernwon:

alexsparks:

Feeling like Summer.

what the fuck did all my dreams come true

CHEYNbang

long hair, lana, that’s my bitch

you can tell by the swagger and the lips unf

optimism:

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:59:36 -0500

I was thinking how sad it was that there are some people I will never see again who I care deeply for and then I realized

how many people I’ve gotten rid of

"Everything just kept picking and picking, hacking away. And nothing was interesting, nothing. The..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:51:05 -0500

“Everything just kept picking and picking, hacking away. And nothing was interesting, nothing. The people were restrictive and careful, all alike. And I’ve got to live with these fuckers for the rest of my life, I thought. God, they all had assholes and sexual organs and their mouths and their armpits. They shit and they chattered and they were dull as horse dung. The girls looked good from a distance, the sun shining through their dresses, their hair. But get up close and listen to their minds running out of their mouths, you felt like digging in under a hill and hiding out with a tommy-gun.”

- Bukowski, Ham On Rye (via howlinglune)

heyitsapril: Gonna burn down the banana stand… (at The...

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:46:36 -0500

heyitsapril:

Gonna burn down the banana stand… (at The Grove)

worst nevernude ever

flying-blades: THE DARK KNIGHT WANTED POSTER

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:45:37 -0500

flying-blades:

THE DARK KNIGHT WANTED POSTER

girl i fuck who i want and fuck who i don’t i said baby...

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:40:25 -0500

girl i fuck who i want

and fuck who i don’t

i said baby just make me come

and don’t make a sound

god i love this fucking song

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chlochloariadne: megneto: This made my stomach drop. Mine...

Mon, 20 May 2013 05:41:08 -0500

chlochloariadne:

megneto:

This made my stomach drop.

Mine too.

"Nothing holds me. Let me say that I myself have torn myself to shreds."

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:55:52 -0500

“Nothing holds me. Let me say that I myself have torn myself to shreds.”

- Franz Kafka, from The Blue Octavo Notebooks (1917-1919)

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